It's all good

I should be so happy but I feel like crying for no good reason.  There is nothing wrong that I'm aware of, nothing I need, nothing I need desperately to do.  Sure there are things I could be doing but I've done the important stuff for now.   It's a grey, drizzly sort of day outside but warm and cozy in here.  I've put the desk back where it was before (how many times now have I moved it only to put it back a few days later?) so my nest fits me again.  This is the room I claimed years ago and still treasure it.  Nope, it is nothing special, just a small bedroom.  Crowded with a desk, dressers, and two bookcases.  One tv, a dvd player, my makeup and that sort of stuff.  But it is my little space. No one else comes in here other than to get clothes from the drawers or to use the clothes horse for the wet laundry.  It's so nice to have a place of my own to do as I like with.  And yes, I know it's stupid since I have the rest of the house as well. It's me who chooses to clean it, arrange it all, and relax in it all.  But this place feels different to me.    I think Andy feels the same way a bit about his shed and the area around the pc in another room.  I've made him space for this things separate from the family stuff where it's up to him to sort out the papers and stuff that piles up.  And he seems to like it, even the sorting out part.  Everyone needs a bit of space they can go feel is their's to do whatever they like with/in.  Or to do nothing in.   I do, however, realise fully that this is a luxury some people can't imagine.  I've been there myself so I do know how fortunate I am.

I've been neglecting my friends the past couple of weeks.  I've been doing a lot of housework, catching up on jobs around the place, going out with Andy and reading a lot of books on the Kindle.   Since the weather has changed I'm feeling a lot more aches and pains.  But at least I can keep going and smiling.  Chel took me to Billing Aquadrome for the fireworks on Saturday evening.  The bonfire was beautiful and I don't know what to say about the firework display.  I love watching them.  The way the sky is filled with gold fairy dust, it's all magical to me.  The weather was kind to us, very mild so I was able to really enjoy the time we spent outdoors. I did discover that at last I'm not interested in going on the fairground rides.  Also it was even more clear how poor my night vision is now.  Chel had to guide me wherever it was unlit. Thank you Chel and also Thank you Andy for staying in with the dogs.  The beasties don't like the fireworks but Andy said they were peaceful this year - maybe Jess isn't bothered by them and let Stevie know it was all okay????

Since I wrote that I've shifted by behind and vacuumed downstairs and prepared a meal for us. Yum.  I am a good cook when I can be bothered to do so.  Of course it helps if I get stuff out of the freezer soon enough as well.......lol.

Now I'm off to write some emails to people I care about, one of whom has moved into her own place in a new country.  I'm so pleased for her.

Take care all and have