Sheila's Scribblings
I'm coping very well, thank you, considering. I didn't have a hissy fit. I didn't go hit the booze. I didn't even eat a packet of crisps! I just got on with other things. I didn't even beat myself up over it for one single second. And now I'm back for another try.
The paragraph above relates to the fact that I had written a full page on here and was really happy with it, then somehow I managed to delete it. Okay, I know how to delete a page, but what I mean is I don't know how I came to delete THAT page. Ah, well, we live and learn to be more careful with the ol' delete button.
My reason for starting this site is to help myself. My weight is 7 stone above what I want it to be. I am not as fit as I want to be. I'm not interested in losing weight and getting fitter to please my doctor, my family or anybody else. Just me. I got myself into this state and I will jolly well have a good go at getting myself out of it.
Carrying seven stone is the equivalent to carrying around a small person everywhere I go, never ever putting her down. No wonder I get tired easily. This is causing me physical problems and I've had enough of all of it.
Before anyone even thinks about giving me advice, forget it. I'm old enough and intelligent enough to know what to do. It's the doing it that's the trouble. I've got a shelf full of the 'self help' books incuding Dr. Phil and FlyLady. Yep, they are there with all the rest. I look at them sometimes - when I'm dusting in there. I've been through the weight loss program with the nurse at the surgery, bless her. Boy was she on a loser when she thought she could help me. (Okay, I did lose a few pounds but I soon found them again.) I have all her lovely leaflets in the drawer next to me. I've downloaded lots of useful diet info from the Diabetes UK. That is a great site, by the way. The only thing is that none of it works for me. Do you know why? I do. It's because I don't use it. I don't eat right and I don't drink enough water or liquids. And I don't move myself around enough. That is all there is to it. Doesn't it all sound so simple?
I prefer crisps to chocolate most of the time, but not the bland chicken ones. Oh no, I love the roast beef and mustard or cheese and onion. Gotta have the salt and e numbers to please my palate. I seldom eat cake or biscuits but love pastries and cream. Of course, if I do have a cake or open a packet of biscuits I don't stop until every bite is gone. Love, love love tiramisu and trifle. I also love fresh fruit, salad and vegetables. I'm not usually bothered about chips. I know that I like fast food. By fast food I'm not referring to McDonalds or Burger King, but food that I can just grab and eat - like opening a packet of crisps for example. If I have leftovers in the fridge that I can just nuke and eat, that'll be my first choice. I can just about be bothered to make a sandwich if I'm trying to be 'good'. I have realised that if I chop the lettuce, tomatoes etc into a bowl ready to eat, I'm more likely to eat it than if I have to chop it when I'm hungry or it's mealtime. If I get veg out of the freezer, put it in a pan of water and put it on the hob early in the day, I'm more likely to have veg with my meal. I'm hoping that doing simple things like that will help. I need to make them become habits.
One thing I have learned is that weight isn't just about what goes in your mouth. It's what goes on in your head and heart as well. But that is another issue altogether. And that is why I'm happy that I didn't give myself a hard time about losing a page of writing.
So here I am, writing this on a web page instead of using a pen and notebook. At least I can't type and eat at the same time - I use two hands to type! It will be fun to see where this journey takes me.
The paragraph above relates to the fact that I had written a full page on here and was really happy with it, then somehow I managed to delete it. Okay, I know how to delete a page, but what I mean is I don't know how I came to delete THAT page. Ah, well, we live and learn to be more careful with the ol' delete button.
My reason for starting this site is to help myself. My weight is 7 stone above what I want it to be. I am not as fit as I want to be. I'm not interested in losing weight and getting fitter to please my doctor, my family or anybody else. Just me. I got myself into this state and I will jolly well have a good go at getting myself out of it.
Carrying seven stone is the equivalent to carrying around a small person everywhere I go, never ever putting her down. No wonder I get tired easily. This is causing me physical problems and I've had enough of all of it.
Before anyone even thinks about giving me advice, forget it. I'm old enough and intelligent enough to know what to do. It's the doing it that's the trouble. I've got a shelf full of the 'self help' books incuding Dr. Phil and FlyLady. Yep, they are there with all the rest. I look at them sometimes - when I'm dusting in there. I've been through the weight loss program with the nurse at the surgery, bless her. Boy was she on a loser when she thought she could help me. (Okay, I did lose a few pounds but I soon found them again.) I have all her lovely leaflets in the drawer next to me. I've downloaded lots of useful diet info from the Diabetes UK. That is a great site, by the way. The only thing is that none of it works for me. Do you know why? I do. It's because I don't use it. I don't eat right and I don't drink enough water or liquids. And I don't move myself around enough. That is all there is to it. Doesn't it all sound so simple?
I prefer crisps to chocolate most of the time, but not the bland chicken ones. Oh no, I love the roast beef and mustard or cheese and onion. Gotta have the salt and e numbers to please my palate. I seldom eat cake or biscuits but love pastries and cream. Of course, if I do have a cake or open a packet of biscuits I don't stop until every bite is gone. Love, love love tiramisu and trifle. I also love fresh fruit, salad and vegetables. I'm not usually bothered about chips. I know that I like fast food. By fast food I'm not referring to McDonalds or Burger King, but food that I can just grab and eat - like opening a packet of crisps for example. If I have leftovers in the fridge that I can just nuke and eat, that'll be my first choice. I can just about be bothered to make a sandwich if I'm trying to be 'good'. I have realised that if I chop the lettuce, tomatoes etc into a bowl ready to eat, I'm more likely to eat it than if I have to chop it when I'm hungry or it's mealtime. If I get veg out of the freezer, put it in a pan of water and put it on the hob early in the day, I'm more likely to have veg with my meal. I'm hoping that doing simple things like that will help. I need to make them become habits.
One thing I have learned is that weight isn't just about what goes in your mouth. It's what goes on in your head and heart as well. But that is another issue altogether. And that is why I'm happy that I didn't give myself a hard time about losing a page of writing.
So here I am, writing this on a web page instead of using a pen and notebook. At least I can't type and eat at the same time - I use two hands to type! It will be fun to see where this journey takes me.