I've got pretty new hair. I put a colour on it yesterday and love it. I used a light ash blonde over my mid/dark brown. There were already some left over highlights in it and lots of grey so I've ended up with quite a nice colour with different bits in it. It's a medium brown. I'm amazed how much grey was scattered around this head all of a sudden.
I've realised that I've not liked my body since I was about seventeen. That's a long time to not be aware of something so close to you. I still don't know all the ins and outs of this issue, but will sure be working on it now that I know. I am so fat. There is no word for it other than fat. Whenever I see my reflection suddenly I get a shock. My mental image is not in line with the real one. But I have no real conception of what I actually do look like. This is a painful thing for me to deal with and to live with. I think I would love to have a slim, fit, healthy body that can move, run, skip, jump and dance easily. I say I think I would live to have because I don't know what that would feel like, really. And if I did really want it, wouldn't I have already achieved that wish? Wouldn't I have already been working towards that goal with every bit of energy I have? I mean, I gained weight when I was seventeen and pregnant and have never done anything real about it. I have lost weight a few times and gained it back, but I've never worked at getting/being fit. All I do is wish. And as the old proverb goes "If wishes were horses then all would ride".
I give myself treats but realise now that that is different from pampering and taking care of myself. I do wear clothes that fit and that I like (mostly), and have cut down on a lot of the excess food intake;I use toiletries that suit my skin and hair and enjoy using them, but I still don't give my body the love and attention that would make so much difference. So watch this space and lets see what happens.
I've realised that I've not liked my body since I was about seventeen. That's a long time to not be aware of something so close to you. I still don't know all the ins and outs of this issue, but will sure be working on it now that I know. I am so fat. There is no word for it other than fat. Whenever I see my reflection suddenly I get a shock. My mental image is not in line with the real one. But I have no real conception of what I actually do look like. This is a painful thing for me to deal with and to live with. I think I would love to have a slim, fit, healthy body that can move, run, skip, jump and dance easily. I say I think I would live to have because I don't know what that would feel like, really. And if I did really want it, wouldn't I have already achieved that wish? Wouldn't I have already been working towards that goal with every bit of energy I have? I mean, I gained weight when I was seventeen and pregnant and have never done anything real about it. I have lost weight a few times and gained it back, but I've never worked at getting/being fit. All I do is wish. And as the old proverb goes "If wishes were horses then all would ride".
I give myself treats but realise now that that is different from pampering and taking care of myself. I do wear clothes that fit and that I like (mostly), and have cut down on a lot of the excess food intake;I use toiletries that suit my skin and hair and enjoy using them, but I still don't give my body the love and attention that would make so much difference. So watch this space and lets see what happens.
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