I'd written a bunch then Firefox decided to crash or something and I lost what I'd done. That is a pain in the neck way down at the lower part of the back. I'll try to remember what I was saying.
Easter has been and gone. It's the first time in about 12 years that we have all had the full Bank Holiday off together. Our friend Helen was kind enough to come in and see to the dogs so we could go out for the day on Saturday without having to watch the clock. We had a lovely day at Chester Zoo, one of the best I've seen. They have plenty of room for the animals, try to stimulate them and simulate their conditions in teh wild as much as possible. The weather was ideal, not too hot, cold, windy or wet. Nor was it crowded = bonus.
I've been doing a lot of thinking lately about why I feel the need to 'work' all the time. To explain what I mean, I can't enjoy myself reading or playing in general if there is housework to be done. No matter how good I leave it at night, and how nice it looks, I always feel that I 'should' be doing something useful. How stupid is that? Sure, there is always something to be done if I look for it, (or even if I don't) but this is taking the work ethic thing too far. I'm trying now to live in the moment and am finding it wonderful. Instead of daydreaming, I try to stay aware of what is going on around me. And part of that is realising that I do not have to be using every minute to work, but have earned the right to do things I enjoy without feeling guilty about it. That isn't to say that I can just play all day every day, but there is a happy medium. Way hay, new ground for me. Let me add here that no one pressures me to do anything. Andy and Chel like me to relax and enjoy life. All this is self imposed and I'm working out where it comes from and why, although those answers don't really matter. It's the behavioural/thinking changes that
are important to me.
Also, when I'm in pain I go to bed for a while. I can get comfy on my pillows and let the pain ease. I may/may not fall asleep but it seems to be doing me good. I still take the meds but taking the pressure off my neck and shoulders seems to help a lot.
And now I'm off to bed for the night before it gets silly late. I will just 'put the downstairs to bed' before I go up so I can come down to a nicer place in the morning. This makes me feel good.......
Easter has been and gone. It's the first time in about 12 years that we have all had the full Bank Holiday off together. Our friend Helen was kind enough to come in and see to the dogs so we could go out for the day on Saturday without having to watch the clock. We had a lovely day at Chester Zoo, one of the best I've seen. They have plenty of room for the animals, try to stimulate them and simulate their conditions in teh wild as much as possible. The weather was ideal, not too hot, cold, windy or wet. Nor was it crowded = bonus.
I've been doing a lot of thinking lately about why I feel the need to 'work' all the time. To explain what I mean, I can't enjoy myself reading or playing in general if there is housework to be done. No matter how good I leave it at night, and how nice it looks, I always feel that I 'should' be doing something useful. How stupid is that? Sure, there is always something to be done if I look for it, (or even if I don't) but this is taking the work ethic thing too far. I'm trying now to live in the moment and am finding it wonderful. Instead of daydreaming, I try to stay aware of what is going on around me. And part of that is realising that I do not have to be using every minute to work, but have earned the right to do things I enjoy without feeling guilty about it. That isn't to say that I can just play all day every day, but there is a happy medium. Way hay, new ground for me. Let me add here that no one pressures me to do anything. Andy and Chel like me to relax and enjoy life. All this is self imposed and I'm working out where it comes from and why, although those answers don't really matter. It's the behavioural/thinking changes that
are important to me.
Also, when I'm in pain I go to bed for a while. I can get comfy on my pillows and let the pain ease. I may/may not fall asleep but it seems to be doing me good. I still take the meds but taking the pressure off my neck and shoulders seems to help a lot.
And now I'm off to bed for the night before it gets silly late. I will just 'put the downstairs to bed' before I go up so I can come down to a nicer place in the morning. This makes me feel good.......
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