I have no resolutions, I gave them up at some point but I don't remember when. I never keep them so why bother? A new year can start anytime I want to make a change, just like I can start a day over at any point if I choose to. I have been known to just STOP. Take a deep breath and think "I'm going to start over." No matter what or where, I just start again with a different attitude and see what happens. It generally works, not always, but generally.
I'm pretty happy with my life in most ways. The areas I'm not happy are the ones that only I can change. When I'm ready. Some of the changes can even creep up on me unawares - my mind and body working together in perfect synergy.
Whenever I look in a mirror I smile at myself. I like the person I see. Not the surface necessarily but the person, the eyes. I smile at her. That has been happening for a while and is nice. I really like it. Then I decide to add makeup or whatever so the face looks nicer. Then I feel happier as well as being more productive. Go figure. If anything I say works for anyone else, great, but that isn't my purpose in writing this. This blog helps me sort things out in my mind. I just choose to share these ramblings.
I'm enjoying being a student, as I've said before. It's challenging but I'm so glad for the opportunity. I've made so many 'friends' of other student via social networking. My life is richer for all of their input.
All my friends matter to me. I enjoy hearing from and about them all whether they are in person or online. I am making more of an effort to see them in person and will continue to do so this year. I feel better when I get out and about more, and that is reward in itself. Am I saying I'll get out more this year? No. I'm saying I feel better when I do it, and that is all. It's a day by day, or minute by minute choice. Shall I go for a walk. No, I don't feel like it. That's the decision for this minute. Maybe later I'll feel different, maybe not.
Yesterday, the last day of 2012, I had a letter that made me so happy - an appointment for the eye surgery. It's in Feb and I'm delighted. and excited. and can't wait. Wow. To think I'll be able to see better again. Wow. I don't know quite what outcome to expect but am looking forward to finding out. I know I can cope whatever happens. I don't know whether I'll still need my same glasses, new ones or none for the left eye. As the right isn't being done now I have no clue whether I'll need glasses for that eye or what. I'll write on here when I find out. I also accept that it can go wrong and I won't be able to see. I'd hate that but know inside me that I will cope somehow if that happens. Life will go on, just a bit differently.
Now I'm off to go feed myself something nice. I'm actually hungry.
Happy New Year one and all.